snacknightly:

this is actually from today!
midseason chup needs a dinky dogjacket as its coat changes from summer to winter. today was really chilly!
on the right experimenting with a more aviform head/neck

snacknightly:

this is actually from today!

midseason chup needs a dinky dogjacket as its coat changes from summer to winter. today was really chilly!

on the right experimenting with a more aviform head/neck

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?

I was just thinking the other day about how I haven’t seen much from you lately. This is sick and I hope you’re doing well
Hey all, for those of you wondering about the radio silence, I haven’t abandoned this tumblr, consider it in a kind of sluggish “hibernation”.
I have been occupied with a post-grad semester at University of Maryland as well as writing and making art towards my Kunstlerroman project. 
In short, I have been busy doing and less concerned about sharing. I’d still like to, naturally—Elaine Scarry writes that beauty seems to demand replication of itself. Telling people about beauty (or any form of The Good), calling more witnesses is just one of the ways this “will to replication” manifests ( I’ve got an essay in progress about this).  But living these experiences is self evidently the greater good than merely telling others about living them. Besides, the one is prerequisite to the other.
That said, living the good life is not only about what you accomplish, but how you accomplish too. And I’d like to do both make the work and tell the internet about it too—I just gotta make the effort to get that balanced! this is a start!
Thanks to everyone who has stuck around despite my absences
PS. IM DOING FINE DW :)

Progress.

I’ve kept coming back to this sketch to eke away at it. First I just wanted to transfer it to paper, ink+wash tone it, then mail it off, but over time its become an ever-expanding project. It’s funny, the character depicted is not even my own, but my friend Emma’s (I really wish she had a tumblr/online presence to link to) and by this point the amount of effort/time sunk into “gift art” will seem excessive, bizarre.

well, beyond wanting to show kindness to a friend, I also really want to make this as A Work, and not just because of its power as a compelling image. Aside from being wonderfully designed, and playing to my fancy for “revision” characters, Blue2 fascinates because she’s a representation of violent perfectionist thought. I remember Emma describing her attacking Blue (1) because Blue is a bungler and Blue2 must execute every action perfectly.

Not adequately, not even “well”/”usefully”/”competently” (all different degrees of contextual) but perfectly (which can only be defined subjectively). this really speaks to my experience, getting so caught up in the pursuit of Perfect/Good Art (in itself, unattached/defined) obsessive/compulsive patterns and perfectionism that it killed my ability to make any art at all. I explore this in more depths in some of my essays (be patient, they’re forthcoming)

The character speaks to what was a huge (and actively chosen) part of my identity, and although I have identified it as a problem and have been making strides to change my action/thought, that part of my life has not even had time to be “behind me” its like “right there just a few steps away”. I can even go back a few pages of my tumblr and see entries that were products of that mindset.

Anyway, the image is completely worked out, I’m ready to transfer it to paper and real media. Later I can work out the pattern that will be on the framing mat boards. I’m thinking constellations because they’re consistent with both my personal symbolic vocab—in my works euclidian forms have come to represent logic, thought, obsessive/perfectionist thinking; as well as the star-flecked backdrop.

offhand: I had this really strong narcissistic art-fantasy hope people would know/remember my work for “She had a lot to say about darkness”, but considering the limited scope of what I’ve shared over the years, it’s more likely to be “She had a lot to say about dogs.”

snacknightly:

anime speech bubble

taking a break from essay writing

snacknightly:

anime speech bubble

taking a break from essay writing

Hey tumblr, I’ve been absent from posting for a fortnight, so I wanted to give some explanation for my absence:

art is no longer my entire world. I’ve been devoting a lot of time lately to reflection, reading, and writing.

If you wanna know what I’ve been reading:

Read More

a spot/ text header for part of that larger project…
sketches

a spot/ text header for part of that larger project

sketches

so to continue from this post, I was able to get back in touch with Rachel/PPZ via email. Why I’m doing this is I took on some icon commissions in 2013, Rachel was one of the later people to inquire after an icon and school/life tore me away before I could take hers on. It was just an inquiry and no money was exchanged, but it sat ill with me all this time, so I’m making her icon totally free, just as a fun mini project. Here’s today’s progress.

so to continue from this post, I was able to get back in touch with Rachel/PPZ via email. Why I’m doing this is I took on some icon commissions in 2013, Rachel was one of the later people to inquire after an icon and school/life tore me away before I could take hers on. It was just an inquiry and no money was exchanged, but it sat ill with me all this time, so I’m making her icon totally free, just as a fun mini project. Here’s today’s progress.

I’m hesitant to call this “done”; the lineart’s been finished for quite a while but I haven’t got the color/toning quite right in either version…sigh.

I also want to make a secondary piece, a verso page with some calligraphy and misc marginalia to accompany.

posts here have gotten really spotty…I’ve been busy!

between applying for internships, applying for jobs, working said job (TOY STORE :V!) and getting out and about, I havent had very much online presence at all.

Still, it means a ton to me that you guys still tune in with all that’s going on in your busy lives. If you ever wanna hit me up and say “hey” when I’m online, I still use  AIM like its 2006. I’m “grabendolch” tho I usually have my display name set on something dumb, feel free to hit me up :3

Anyone remember this character? Her name was Cuttle iirc, and her creator went by “pirahnapettingzoo”…
Whatever became of her(/them)?

Anyone remember this character? Her name was Cuttle iirc, and her creator went by “pirahnapettingzoo”…

Whatever became of her(/them)?